laughed a lot today. first during recess, when we recounted the early days of 3404. how all of us thought ’sky’ would be some eurasian kid. lol. during history tutorial, when shawn play-acted mindon min, albeit a really high-pitched whiny one. lol. it was so terribly hilarious – i think i laughed until my stomach nearly cramped. then later, during dinner with maryam gayle yuying and gideon at S11. but laughter is good, isn’t it? i can’t think about laughter without thinking about what she said about me dying of laughter. why can’t my brain stop thinking such thoughts? 

come to think about it, i really do like 3404 now. yeah, i didn’t really like our class in the beginning. hell, like i even wanted to be in aj in the beginning (though i still don’t like aj, but that’s another story) turns out that everyone thought that i was an anti-social person in the beginning. which was my fault really, for assuming that everyone was already in their cliques, and that i was just a sore thumb sticking out… but somehow, along the way, the class just started to gel together. maybe it was when we were all crowded at a canteen table, frantically copying history tutorials, or griping about jude, or something. now 34’s one crazy, fun-to-be-in class. and we’re real lucky to have THE BEST pd tutor in the whole of aj, the kind who can laugh with us, and yet rein us in when we get too wild… miss ng rocks :)

and the vice-principal has earned herself the title of being the bitchiest, most annoying vice-principal EVER. and i am so extremely disgusted to find that she was from st nicks? oh man. i can’t believe she came from st nicks. went to ask for early leave for my moh appointment tomorrow, and she expects me to go there straight from school, no going home first to shower or whatever (which is like absolutely essential, given that my infection is not fully healed). her reasoning? you shouldn’t “waste time”. so yeah, according to her, i should take the mrt and meet my parents at the mrt station instead of getting my parents to fetch me there, wow. that is like so logical eh. if i had to take early leave for migraine, and i had to ask her, i’d rather just suffer with my migraine, cos i’m sure that my migraine would become worse upon seeing her face.

vanessa dropped maths today, which made me seriously wonder if i should have dropped lit or something. maths as always, remains a tantalising option. was mulling over it for quite some time, and the opening lecture of the day did not help by reliving the horrors of integration (which i barely scraped through in amaths, by virtue of intensive practice on only a few question types that regularly appeared in the tys…) it always sucks to see people go off for free periods, when your brain is half-clouded by sleep. but oh well. got the trigo class test back, and most surprisingly i actually passed! though i could have done much better, that’s for sure. made a few careless (and not to mention stupid) mistakes that should not have been there. and as usual, it always sucks to have my earliest day (which is still only 3.15, blah.) become my latest day… but yeah, i should work for maths. though i’m so not motivated to do so…

oh well. it’s like 12 and i haven’t even started on history tutorial for tomorrow… *licks perpetually dry lips* time to get to work.

:((( didn’t go for nationals after all. judging from the c-division score it must have been really exciting. but oh well. st nicks are double champs again :D i *must* go for the nationals next year. no matter what.

and i think i’m going to be in big trouble. thanks to the clinic which 1) closed too early yesterday and 2) refuses to give me MC for monday and tuesday. and it’s damn friggin’ ex lah. 65 bucks just for cleaning and dressing my wound (which i can do myself, except that i can’t see it…) and for some medicine? and they *still* want to see me on monday. if i’m okay by then, i’m so not going. why waste more of my parents’ money? sigh.

just scored 15 out of 45 for the econs online test. lol. i really need to sit down and revise my econs one day. but knowing me… sigh. still gotta study for 3d trigo. and do a 3-page history tutorial. and type a letter to miss ng explaining why i don’t have an mc for monday and tuesday ._.

*mind flickers to the ben & jerry’s in the freezer* damned chubby hubby is so darned tempting. peanut butter in ice cream… yum yum. *resists and starts on history tutorial*

*grumbles* tomorrow’s going to be one super big rush for time. a rush to get back home, shower, empty my bag of unneccessary stuff, rush to the clinic (while praying that it’s not crowded), then rush all the way to kallang mrt, then figure out a way to rush to the stadium. how fun.

and all because my cousins’ maid fainted yesterday, preventing me from visiting the doctor yesterday. and because the clinic had to close at like 4pm today. greattt.

and oh yeah, i’ll be skipping cca at the same time… due to my *cough* infection. *looks around furtively and hopes that no one from synapse reads this*

and i didn’t drop lit after all. it’s lim’s fault. it is so NOT fair to tell an indecisive freak to “think it over thoroughly” and “not drop the subject because your maths grades are worse and you have the language abilities to do well”. because all it did was to throw me into a blender of confusion and indecision all over again. decided that by the time i decided it would be too late to get all the signatures. oh well. guess i’ll stick it out till the end of the year. i’ll probably be asked to drop a subject anyway – there’s no way i can get a C-average for all my subjects. i just hope that coleridge doesn’t kill me before the end of the year.

and i must complain and gripe about how the vice-principal is practically a witch in disguise. i had to take early leave because the bloody infection was still bleeding and threatening to embarrass me with unsightly bloodstains, and because i was running out of bandages. and the VP witch was aggressively asking me about why i didn’t go to the doctor’s yesterday, why didn’t i buy more bandages, etc etc. like hello, how was i (or anyone, for that matter) to know that the bloody infection would start leaking pus and blood like nobody’s business? or that my cousins’ maid would faint? appearances really can be deceiving. my goodness, to think that i thought she looked sort of KINDLY from afar. up close, she honestly has a pinched, mean-looking face, the kind of person i wouldn’t like to tread the toes of, cos you know she’s gonna scream bloody murder or something. and don’t be deceived by her simple-looking clothes. she’s a bloody rich woman, and i know it cos she wears a newish-looking red metallic frame for her glasses, which totally doesn’t go with her face nor clothes. another reason why i hate the aj administration (except for wonderful teachers like miss ng and… wait, there’s only miss ng.)  lesson learnt: NEVER trust appearances. she’s the worst vice-principal i know. hell, mrs cheong is a saint compared to her. miss ong from pl was a nice old lady. mrs tay is just simply nasty. ugh.

last episode of smallville season 3 today. saw rumours that lois lane is appearing in the next season, and that lana’s gonna get a new love interest. which essentially means no more clark/lana? :((( but oh well. my OTP (one true pairing) is still and will always be harry/hermione.

(i had to laugh out loud at a certain someone’s nick, calling on the class people to hand in econs essay. the same certain someone who was “referring” to my essay during gp lecture WITHOUT telling me. and i think that certain someone has caught on to a certain scheme to expose that certain someone’s absence from maths lectures. what a pity.)

the good thing: it no longer hurts like hell.

the bad thing: it’s leaking pus like nobody’s business. had to keep changing my dressing… ugh. thank goodness i didn’t go to school today, or it would have been uber embarrassing.

and another bad thing: my cousins’ maid fainted, so my parents have to bring her to the hospital… which leaves me unable to go for my follow-up at the clinic. which also means no MC for today and no asking the doctor how the hell do i stop the stupid pus from leaking. i’ll hopefully be able to go to school tomorrow… missing three days of lessons is really too much. and if i miss tomorrow, i probably would have to call miss ng and ask her to request some special deadline for my dropping of lit ._.

*whines some more* and it’s the return of the vertigo/dizzy spells. freaky things, they are.

blah. i haven’t even touched the econs essay yet. will do it after friends. i guess.

can’t wait for national track and field. but there’s cca on that day ._. i hope i can get an excuse to skip it or something. MUST support st nicks (though it’s almost certain that we’ll they’ll be the double champs again)

the worst place to have an infection is at one’s bottom. you most certainly can’t sit down without experiencing quite a great deal of pain, walking becomes a chore,  you have to sleep on your side all the time and that is probably the only time you don’t really feel the pain (although your leg muscles get a bit strained from all the lying on the side)

which is exactly what i’m experiencing right now.

didn’t go to school on friday because the pain was so bad that i could hardly even bear to walk. went to the doctor, got informed that it was an infection and that minor surgery was needed to let the pus out. and i also found out that i was having a fever thanks to the damned infection. which explains why i was so darned sleepy on thursday, and why i slept for nearly 10 hours on friday morning and afternoon alone.

and thanks to the fever, i spent the entire saturday being drowsy and unable to start on any work (two synapse articles, one two-part econs essay, lots of maths tutorial, studying for 3d trigo…). i doubt i’ll be going to school tomorrow either, even if it’s a half-day, cos i need to change the dressing every once in a while, or it starts to really hurt. but arghhh. then i’ll be missing like two history tutorials in a row :(

and i’m really afraid that i’ll get addicted to the painkillers, because i can hardly bear the pain without it. *shudders* i really hope that won’t happen.

and oh. we got our progress reports on thursday too. miss tan (maths tutor) was very straightforward about it, saying that i needed to put in lots of intensive studying to secure a pass.

miss lim (lit) ’s whole comment was about me falling asleep in class. lol.

miss tengara (econs) hinted that i need to seriously study for econs if i want to do well. miss usha (gp) was pretty nice, saying that i’m capable of doing better (i should hope so!), though she doesn’t think that i’m willingly putting enough effort to improve through reading/writing (as seen from the “achieving – meeting expectations grade she gave me).

miss ng (history) was probably the nicest of all, with me getting “good” for everything except ability to cope.

and i just realised that if i don’t go to school tomorrow, it leaves me with only ONE day to ask miss lim if i can drop lit AND get the signatures of all the other teachers (i just realised that miss tan is going for some workshop! crap crap crap!) and the arts hod. if i miss the deadline i’ll go bang my head on the wall. seriously. saw the coleridge book on thursday – it’s horribly thick and yellowing. i don’t want to do coleridge :(

okay back to synapse articles. i’m seriously depending on my imagination to come up with descriptions of study spots. and without iced coffee (which i can’t exactly go out and buy thanks to my butt problem) there is no coffee review. greattttt.

*yawns*

 

maths class test wasn’t that bad after all. now, if only i DID practise and memorise all the formulas i would probably be pretty sure of passing it, but i didn’t, so…

 

the class was very funny today, when they tried to scare me and jieyi. unfortunately i didn’t get scared, because i caught on to it far too early. first the girls (with the exception of jieyi) were whispering about something and i caught snatches of it which pointed that it would be some sort of a scaring thing… then the whole class acted weirdly (totally un-class-like, i don’t know how to describe it, but yeah.) and the final straw was hearing the metal closet sort of rattle then a cough from it, and the cough sounded suspiciously like it was mark… anyway i found out so they didn’t have a chance to scare me, so i became an accomplice in trying to scare jieyi. but she didn’t get scared either, because she was quite blissfully ignorant of all the funny noises… lol.

 

was am pissed because dwayne borrowed my hole puncher (which i lent to jieyi first) and has very cleverly lost it. when i first asked him, he was like i think it’s in my locker… no wait, i think it’s in the classroom. and that’s it. i don’t care if i’m a prissy bitch or whatever, but i am absolutely annoyed by the fact that he didn’t even bother to check his locker or room 1111 to see if my hole puncher was anywhere about. hello, you borrow something, lose it, then you don’t give a damn??? i seriously wonder why the hell i ever thought he was decently responsible, and why i voted him for council. it is beyond annoying to not have a hole puncher when you use a RING FILE, which is why i’m ranting away. it had better be in his locker. or he can hope that the bookshop sells the exact same hole puncher i used. i am NOT a happy camper when i lose stuff, especially when it is not my fault.

 

and i found out that it’s going to be only me and taruna having synapse tomorrow. am not planning to stay put in the free access room – am going around the school and amk to take photos of study spots and maybe the coffee, for the coffee reviews. but still. cca with only two people is really silly.

 

dilemma time again. the vice-principal announced the open window for dropping of subjects today. which inevitably leads me to wonder if i should drop lit. the fact that i actually passed lit without really studying forces to really examine if i can cope with 4 subs. i didn’t do too badly, considering that i didn’t really study my FEDD is actually better than a few people who only have 3 subs. but then again, i can’t help wondering if the F and the D’s could have been a grade or two higher if i didn’t have lit? and there is the question of whether i would really make good use of the free periods or just waste them by slacking away? i should probably decide soon… before i hand over the 15 bucks for the coleridge poems… sigh. i hate being an indecisive freak.

 

bah. should get to doing tutorial 10 before miss tan has my head for not completing it…



a little something i picked up from eileen ong :)

 

You’re the super-slacker!!

Homework?

What’s that? Studying? Not in your vocabulary.

You hardly study and almost never do your work

and yet, by some divine intervention, you’re

still surviving. And you come to school so

un-often, your teachers have practically

forgotten that you even exist. Go, you slacker,

you!! 



Which Stereotypical Singaporean Student Are You? 

brought to you by Quizilla

yikes. it’s already 3 plus and i haven’t done any maths. blah.

 

was too busy trying to find books on interracial marriages with elibraryhub. and incidentally, the elibraryhub search thingy is way better than the search at the libraries. have found 3 highly relevant books (but it looks like they were published in the 1970s. ugh.) and about 15 other sort of relevant books, meaning its about interracial marriages/relationships in other countries…

 

but unfortunately, most of the books (especially the essential ones!) are at JURONG library’s *reference* section, which means staying there for hours to pore over the books and figure out what pages to zap. i doubt i’ll be able to get away with zapping the whole book at the library. otherwise, the books are at this used books repository place where it costs $1.55 to reserve the books IF they are non-reference. blah :(

 

found people with potter stickers for trade/sale online! coolies :) two of them have stickers i want at what i think would be reasonable prices, while this guy only needs a few stickers but is willing to pay like 2 bucks for EACH sticker. though he does charge like $0.50 per sticker, keeping in mind that each sticker only costs $0.20 (less if you buy at popular with 10% discount, hehe!) i should go out and buy more stickers… just realised the number of stickers i do NOT have…

 

and arghhh. why didn’t i buy more dvd+r at the world book fair? it costs like 4 bucks at popular and i don’t really have time to go to funan/sim lim square to buy them. and the mouse. and the gaming pad. argh.

 

gonna do maths now. bleah. maybe i should push the tuition later. by “oversleeping” or something.

muzak: Ryoma Echizen – Dreaming on the Radio~SR Type

just realised that i haven’t really blogged eh. migraine + severe exhaustion on tuesday sent me home early. wednesday was a super long day thanks to the thomas wee thing. was falling asleep at about 5 plus. haha.

and today ended late too, cos of maths remedial (which i discovered will happen EVERY WEEK from now on. there goes my sole “early” 3.15 day) it was actually okay. but arghhh. no more 3.15 days! :(((

got history back today too. and i miraculously passed, thank goodness. but i SWEAR that i will never leave it to the last minute anymore. i SWEAR that i will study for the next history test. i am just extremely thankful that i passed, considering that i didn’t even touch origins of cold war (hell, i totally forgot about marshall plan and truman doctrine, that says a LOT.) and that i just skimmed through most of the globalisation notes on the day itself. thank goodness it was cuba, and thank goodness that i did cuba for my tutorial essay.

got DRQ back today too, albeit a little late. 11 out of 20, a five mark improvement from the previous one, and it means that i definitely passed my econs, even it was just barely so. again, considering that i only actually studied production and costs and relied on my super-short-summaries from the previous common tests for the other topics…

and i miraculously got 45% for othello. i can hardly believe that. how could some crap i wrote turn out to be a PASSING GRADE. whoa. if i pass PC then i’ve passed lit too. but for some reason or another, lim sok peng wants to see my mum. probably about me sleeping in lit lessons, lack of interest in lit or me wanting to drop lit. i think.

so maths is actually the only subject that i’ve failed miserably at. which is why miss tan wanting to see my mum does not come as a surprise. she’ll probably tell my mum to make me consider dropping maths and of course bring up the question of me sleeping in class… but i stress that i will never ever drop maths because of computing/business in the U.

been sleeping earlier these few days, but today’s an exception i guess. am feeling quite sleepy already actually, as much as i feel tempted to read the library books i borrowed today. borrowed legends of dune: the butlerian jihad, two books off the regeneration series i liked before, a dawson’s creek book and a roswell high book. yes, trashy teen pocketbooks, but i feel like rereading those somehow.

oh well. off to sleep now. let’s hope the pasta i bring to school tomorrow turns out okay (i’m bringing it cos i’m getting broke. only 4 bucks left for food. need to save money for potter stickers, dvd+r, gamepad…………)

pe today REALLY sucked. we were 22 minutes “late” because we didn’t change in five minutes after the vice-principal announced that there was no assembly. so we got to do push-ups, one for every minute “late”. fine. then they restarted the count whenever someone else came in late. and whenever they “could not hear us” or whenever “we did not do it properly”. put simply, almost whenever they felt like it. and oh, we did it on the track. my palms still have the imprint of the track on it. how terribly fun.

and they rushed us so badly that i didn’t really get into the right position for the push-ups and ended up straining my thigh muscle. suddenly the idea of afternoon pe seems very, very painful.

rest of the day passed by in a blur. pw still sucks, and it turns out that miss tan (the maths tutor) and miss lim (lit) wants to meet my parents. whee. i wonder what for. have a feeling that miss tan will ask my parents to let me drop maths. which i absolutely will never drop because 1) just in case i’m going to business 2) just in case i’m going to computing. IF i actually qualify for a local u, that is. and the question of why i fall asleep in class will definitely be a hot topic. i swear i TRY not to fall asleep most of the time. i slept at 10.30 on thursday night but was still sleepy during lessons on friday. and yet i’m not sleepy at all when i’m doing things i want to do. weirddd.

and oh. checked out our gp marks last friday. haven’t deproved, but neither have i improved. got another 29 out of 50. must be the mother theresa example, i think. oh well. getting back DRQ tomorrow. i need at least 6 out of 20 (deja vu of previous test!) to pass econs overall, provided that each part is of equal weightage. i really i hope i pass. and history too. though it doesn’t sound too promising that a quarter of our batch failed. whee.

feeling real sleepy now. and still have to write the jude essay i forgot about on sunday, until denise messaged to ask what the question was. was still happily ps2-ing even. oh man.

gonna be a busy week. and i wanted to go to sim lim square to buy dvd+rs that are hopefully compatible with my burner. and a pc gamepad or a pc/ps adaptor. so i can play some games in gamepad convenience. sigh. i wonder how much that will set me back by? >_<

brrr. it’s pretty cold these days. and quite unfortunately, perfect for sleeping.

sorta proved that the lack of sleep does not make me fall asleep in class, because i was falling asleep during gp (when usha was lecturing us… don’t ask me how.) and lit, when i slept at like 10.30pm last night. which probably is the earliest i’ve slept for months, not counting the times when i have migraines.

got econs essay back. a pathetic 9 out of 25… if each paper is of an equal weightage, i have just barely made the 52% mark. i need to get at least 6 for my DRQ, or i’m screwed for econs.

got jude essay back too. quite miraculously passed with 51%. then kheng announces that we need to get a new book that costs 15 bucks. which throws me into the whole “should i drop lit” dilemma. to be honest, i can’t really think of any good reasons why i SHOULD drop lit. aside from the extra time free periods will net me, the fact that lim and kheng pretty much suck, the fact that i fall asleep the most during lit lessons, the fact that i think i truly suck at lit… argh. guess it’ll depend on how i do for othello and pc, of which i am quite sure will be crap. bahhh.

random thoughts floating around now. like how pw is screwed, and how i don’t even seem to care. how i’m getting into dawson’s creek again (thanks to the pocketbooks, blah!) and about ryoma’s new SR SAMURAI album, which is really really good. must burn them into audio discs to listen to. fell asleep trying to do history tutorial while listening to minagawa junko’s voice just now. how nice. discman is still charging. just burnt a new cd for me to listen to on the road. lots of rasmus, avril and some maroon5. wish i had an mp3 player so i could put in my songs. am finding that one of ryoma’s song is floating around in my head. there was an old song floating around in my head today too. but i can’t remember it. typical. thinking about how my random thoughts sounds like the “stream of consciousness” narrative technique. maybe i will write a h/hr fic using that technique one day. which is quite difficult, really. and oh yes. i should do up my h/hr fic over the weekend. and think up more ideas that are NOT based on personal experiences.

okay going to sleep now. funny, i’m not sleepy now. i just refuse to do my maths homework. will do it during break tomorrow. i think.