your mood swings, they adore me

i’ve lost the blogging feeling and i don’t know why. it’s not that i don’t have anything to say. in fact, once i start i probably can go on and on. so what’s happening?

have i finally learned to procrastinate less? unfortunately i doubt it, looking at my tendency to either play kingdom of loathing online or jeanne d’arc on the PSP the moment i don’t have an urgent deadline at my heels…

but maybe, perhaps, i think it might be because i’m happy? no, i’m not HAPPY like the world and my life is perfect, that kinda thing. it’s more like the feeling of not being utterly stressed up by things that don’t actually really matter (ahem, hall stuff…) and getting to do the things i want to do…

i don’t quite know how to describe it but it’s sort of like… i’m at peace with myself? i mean, i’m satisfied with life the way it is now. although i am also quite conveniently ignoring things like… studying. haha. i have to admit that i’m still in a terribly slack and lazy mood, which i really ought to get rid of real quickly, and really for once in my academic life, do readings ON TIME.

although step one would be to like clear away last sem’s stuff. and to tidy up the rest of my room so i stop chucking stuff here and there. i don’t know why i can never gather enough enthusiasm and momentum to always be organised. i start things easily but following through is always a huge problem for me. it’s a vicious cycle – i clean and tidy up my room, but after a while i lose all semblance of discipline and stop organising everything. so it all gathers up into one big mess… until i decide that the mess is just too much, that is. so i clear it up and then the cycle starts all over again… yes, i know i’m weird. can’t quite help it, though.

okay, can’t think of anything else to really say. don’t want to blog about my life because it’s way too mundane. ha.

(OH i forgot to say, i’m super excited that charmaine sheh’s coming to singapore! seeing your idol in the flesh is like how cool la! yes i know i’m crazy but i don’t care. and it’s well, fun la.)

anyway, i just hope that this year will be a happy one for me :)

and oh yeah, don’t say i didn’t warn you, but hint hint, less than a month before you-know-what! haha. :)

bigger than a starstruck grand parade

ah, silly me. i’ve been thinking about making new year resolutions ever since i got the exam results, but thanks to procrastination and my having not made any new year resolutions before, i forgot that they’re kinda supposed to be done before the new year. oh well. better late than never.

1. Less procrastination, more action.
   quite self-explanatory, this. i procrastinate WAY too much and i seriously have to start having some self-discipline and a way to organise myself and my time. and this applies to everything. from project or essay deadlines to the anniversary book project to EMC, whatever. everything, you hear me? stop that bloody procrastination.
2. Eat less, exercise more.
   unfortunately i think my pills are starting to lose effect. which means i have to consciously eat less again. and i seriously need to exercise more because that’s the part i’m always too lazy to do. eating less doesn’t require much effort so i do that easily enough, but having to get out to run and swim… well, you know me. and so the resolution is to start exercising regularly. like at least once a week. at least.
3. Sleep earlier.
   i need to stop screwing up my body clock and sleep at more normal times. meaning, no more 5 or 6am “nights” please. by next year i should be sleeping at like 3am latest on most nights. as if that’s not late enough…
4. Splurge less.
   i don’t actually spend a lot of money on a regular basis, but i have this terrible tendency to indulge in my temptations and splurge on expensive stuff. like ahem, that new watch and that mouse… i need to lust after stuff less, which i think will consequently make me splurge less. i think.
5. Attend all lectures + keep awake + pay attention during lectures.
   i’m terribly guilty of not doing all of the above many times this sem. which is one reason why my grades nose-dived. if i were to keep myself awake and take good notes down i’m sure i’ll do much better.
6. Do readings consistently and critically.
   i know it’s impossible to do them consistently for the whole sem, so all i’m asking from myself is to at least try and maintain some semblance of doing my readings on time until reading week. as for critically, that means highlighting and doing like little summaries of each readings. instead of panicking at the end of the sem when i haven’t read half of the readings and have no idea what they’re talking about. not to mention that i do that when the exam is the next day.
7. Less last minute submissions and no late submissions.
   i’ve learnt my lesson from this sem, absolutely NO late submissions from me ever again, because they really are a waste of marks. as for last minute work, i’m sure that i probably can turn in better essays if i had more time to read over them again (as opposed to sending them in 2 minutes before the deadline…). and actually i kinda wish i’d done badly for all that last minute work. at least it’ll wake me up.
8. Get my driving license by the end of the year.
   it’s been rather ridiculous how i’ve taken so long to get my license. and by hook or by crook i will get it by the end of the year. and yes that means stop being lazy about finding private instructors and what not.

okay, i can’t think of any more so let’s just leave it at 8 for 2008, shall we? and oh yeah, if you see me about to flout any of the above resolutions (especially #5 and #7), please like, slap me or something. or you could gently set me back on the “right” path. haha.

a mini-ramble about results follows, so yeah, read at your own risk.