no more procrastination?

heh, my internal clock is so screwed. i’ve slept like 3 hours in the last 40 or so hours and i’m still pretty much awake… though i’ll probably conk out the moment i lie down. which will be later, after i take a shower.

anyway, i swear god (if he exists) or whoever is up there is really telling me to STOP PROCRASTINATING. somehow it seems like shit keeps happening like before a deadline these days. and it’s quite definitely proportionate to how much i procrastinate. ie, the more i procrastinate, the higher the likelihood of things (almost) exploding in my face.

i can’t remember the last i-procrastinated-and-nearly-died-for-it incident, but NM2208 is an excellent case in point. while i’ve been doing a bit here and there for the portfolio, i didn’t actually really sit down and do stuff for it until tuesday… it was due today (thursday), btw.

well, it’s not too bad and by tuesday evening i was already starting to panick (always a good/bad thing, cos panic makes me procrastinate less. though i do get the occasional moments of self-doubt and omg-shit-i’m-gonna-die, too.), to the point that i didn’t sleep the whole of tuesday night. when i finally took a nap in the afternoon on wednesday, i was rudely awakened by loud speaker noises outside my window… which was when i realised that they were going to have some orientation concert thing on the grass patch on wednesday night.

at that point of time i was like oh boy, this is payback for all the procrastination… a warning from the people above, if you will. but then again, it might be the devil on my shoulder telling me that i should have bought a set of noise-isolating headphones (cos earphones are a bit too uncomfortable to wear for too long) or a new laptop, so i could have escaped to the library to work or something.

so yeah, either i’m not supposed to procrastinate anymore, or i’m supposed to just splurge on the stuff i want/need.

i’m inclined to believe it’s the former, though, especially after what happened earlier… all i can think is, thank goodness i live in hall and that i decided to go and hand in my work as early as possible

because, after spending $12 printing out my work at the laser printers at the library, i realised that i’d managed to save my files into the wrong format, which made them all low-resolution and come out pixelated when printed. like fug, right? then i went to the NM lab and there was whew, illustrator there. EXCEPT that because all the files are linked, i couldn’t just open up the illustrator files to reprint them at higher resolutions.

like oh fug, right? it gets better. so i walked back to hall and then my body decided it was a good time to get a bad stomachache. at this point of time i was starting to REALLY panick. i quickly re-exported the files to pdf, and was about to head back to the CNM lab when i had another surprise when i realised that in my haste to return earlier, i’d left my thumbdrive in the lab. the only good thing is that it was still there later.

anyway, i finally managed to get the printing done, though i swear this module is damn tiring and bordering on nuts.

the conclusion is, i am now officially afraid of procrastination. i don’t mean the little bits here and there, since those rarely screw me over. i mean the rest… and yes i’m really scared because i’m afraid that if i totally procrastinate again, i will end up in pretty deep shit… so yes, less procrastination from yours truly in future.

and since i’m about to fall asleep like now, this is where i shall end. oh wait, i need to rejoice and announce that i got the jap history module for only 1 point! yipee! now i can graduate with like, 5000 points in my programme account. lol.

if

and i’m back to my ‘vampire’ sleeping habits…

it’s raining now, which makes for perfect sleeping weather. except that i’m not even remotely sleepy. in fact, i feel kinda insomniac at the moment.

i still haven’t gotten to reworking my assignments for the portfolio. designing and creating artwork becomes a chore when it’s homework. or well, when it’s work.

it’s been quite a long time since i felt like this. duh, i already knew. so why does it still bother me? oh well. all i can do is hope that i get caught up in work (ha, as if) and forget about it, somehow.

i still need to return my overdue library books, and also get that long overdue haircut. i’m just wondering if i should just go back to sengkang so i can go to my regular stylist, and return my books at the same time. on the other hand, i do kinda feel like i want/need a change. guess i’ll see what i feel like when i wake up later (probably lazy. which was what happened today.)

finding out that my dad has diabetes now makes me worried. apparently it does run in the family… and honestly, i’d rather die than have diabetes, if it means bland food for the rest of my life. what’s the point in living a life you can’t enjoy? and yes, worried enough to make me want to go to the gym. i’m tempted to just join fitness first but i’m afraid that i’ll end up wasting my parents’ money if i don’t go often enough. and yet i can’t muster up enough un-laziness to check out the temporary gym at the guild house.

there is also the matter of needing to get new shoes. the old pair of asics, like a lot of my belongings, is almost 3 years old and i also left it at home. plus, it’s obviously not meant for my feet because my arches hurt when i exercise in them. i already have my eye on a pair of asics which are supposedly good for flat feet, plus it’s only $143, which is kinda cheap for a pair of asics. guess i’ll see when i can drag myself down to queensway to buy them…

the rain has stopped… and i guess i’ll stop here too. can’t think of anything to say without sounding too weird. ha.

If I could be the chains I’d fall from you and let you fly like an angel
If I could be the pain I’d run from you, so far away
If I could turn the time back just one day, it might just be enough to say
All the things I’ve never said to you

And what you don’t know won’t hurt you
What you don’t show will kill you
What you don’t know won’t hurt you
What you don’t show will kill you

butch walker, if (jeannie’s song)

so useless, so hopeless.

idekwilf.

move me

sigh. time has gone by so quickly, it is already that time of the holidays when we have to move back to our regular allocated rooms. i am more than happy to shift back to D215 (no more insanely bright sunlight in the morning! correct room orientation! less walking needed to reach the D2 toilet!) but you know me, i hate moving. i just hate having to pack up everything, move, and then unpack again. at least this will be the last time i move, before i move out once and for all…

in any case, i’ve been really busy with NM2208, mainly because there is an assignment due every monday and thursday. so far i’ve kind of rushed through my work, it’s a miracle that they actually appear half-decent. i just have problems going back to alter them according to some of the suggestions given by my tutorial mates. out of sheer laziness and all that jazz. and well, if you want to see the work i’ve been doing for the module, just head over to http://deesigns.wordpress.com

and sigh at the thought that when school starts again, it’ll be my final year. and we all know how quickly a year passes… before i know it, i’ll be preparing for commencement and getting ready for the harsh realities of the working world… darn. well, i’ll just hope the time will pass slowly, then.

…… and already, i can’t think of anything else to say. oh wait, there is something. charmaine sheh is coming to singapore again! i wonder if i should go all fangirl and head down to see her again. haha.

okay yes, actually i have stuff to say. i’ve watched quite a lot of jap dramas during these holidays (and during the semester, too)! mainly those with actors/actresses i like, or those which are kinda famous. here’s a list (and my comments), in no particular order:

Great Teacher Onizuka:
this was pretty good. takashi sorimachi was really cool, plus the theme song was nice. poison totally got stuck in my head (and my brother’s, because i watched it in his room) cos of this show. and there was a very young oguri shun! he looks better now, i think… lol.

Code Blue:
medical drama with yamashita tomohisa (aka yamapi) and 2 other actresses whom i rather like. a bit too bloody/gory for me (yes i’m a bit squeamish about blood and all) but it was a pretty good drama on the whole. good acting (and crying skills) from yamapi, as usual. actually, this is almost entirely non-romantic but i like it that way. especially after grey’s anatomy and healing hands makes it seem impossible that people who work in the same hospital can have *gasp* platonic relationships.

Proposal Daisakusen!:
this is one of those kinda unrealistic jap dramas, but i like it all the same because it was kinda funny, and also romantic-ish. i did want to throttle yamapi whenever he was just like sooo useless. but at the same time i felt sad for him la. haha. yeah, i liked this series.

Atashinchi no Danshi:
i watched this because it was popular on mysoju and because it has horikita maki! yes, she’s one of my favourite actresses. again, a slightly not-quite-believable storyline but it’s quite good cos it’s funny and slightly intriguing. and oh boy can japanese dramas totally transform their actors and actresses! i didn’t realise that the 2nd brother (the biker gang guy) was mizuki’s brother in hana kimi until i clicked here and there at wiki.d-addicts.com! horikita maki is not bad here, but i think i like her in hana kimi better :D

Bloody Monday:
i watched this on the recommendation of my friend, and it is quite a good thriller/suspense series. quite a lot of twists and shocking moments, which i liked. the hacking bits were kinda too fake for me, though… lol.

Nodame Cantabile: my enjoyment of this series was slightly marred by how i went to go and read the entire manga series before finishing the drama series. on the whole, i quite liked it, even if the slapstick was a bit too much (i guess it was keeping in line with the manga, but that doesn’t always translate well to drama). but chiaki-senpai was good here :D

Densha Otoko: apparently this is quite famous, so i tried watching it, and it’s pretty good. i liked the opening theme (twilight by electric light orchestra) so much, i downloaded the song. it’s both funny and awww at the same time, plus you just couldn’t help rooting for yamada.

Bambino!:
matsumoto jun, and LOTS of pasta. i got hungry watching this one, as expected. on the whole this was quite entertaining, if slightly unbelievable – my beef is how the serving staff practically dance when they’re serving dishes. maybe i need to go to japan and see if there really are restaurants with such ‘power’ waiting staff. and oh yeah, his girlfriend was not pretty so i just didn’t feel anything for them. romance factor = 0. but oh well, the pasta is more important!

Hana Kimi:
yes, i rewatched it lol. and realised that for some reason i didn’t watch the special episode. weird. well, this one is still good even though i’ve watched it before! :D

after my deluge of jap dramas (my drama obsession before the jap dramas was chuck. i LOVE chuck!), i’ve gone back to TVB again.

The Silver Chamber of Sorrows was on TV whenever i went back home, and it intrigued me so much i went to watch it. there are no really big name actors and actresses (save for the old ones like paul chun, nancy sit and the ngai tin hang guy) but i thought this was a pretty good typical TVB kind of series. the script was good and the acting was generally solid. paul chun in particular was very good, cos he totally succeeded in bringing out the hatefulness of his character. his evil, sneering look is quite good, i must say.

at the moment, i’m watching Last One Standing, with roger kwok, kevin cheng and yoyo mung, and boy is it good! the plot is quite nice and not-so-predictable, plus roger’s acting is damn good. i was talking to yy about this and we both agreed that his evil look is damn scary, to the point that he looks downright psychotic at times! since he’s mostly in comedy-ish series, this is the first time i’ve seen him in an evil role, and i think it’s great for him because it demonstrates his versatility. now, if only there was a series where bobby is the villain… the same goes for charmaine, i want to see her play an evil character too!

okay, i think this is enough for now… this is a long entry that contains practically nothing about me. lol. time to work on the class exercise now, i suppose. unfortunately i won’t be going home for the weekend, because i need to work on the assignment due on monday, and going home means i get zero work done simply because my laptop can’t run photoshop and illustrator. oh well.

in other news, i will be acquiring a new timbuk2 bag soon! it fits laptop so i can just bring one bag out in future. it cost me over a hundred bucks, but knowing the longevity of timbuk2s (my black/grey/silver is still going strong, save for ugly pen marks inside the bag) i think it’s money well-spent. i can’t wait for it to arrive!

ok, time to work! or maybe sleep. haha.

and i’ll try to savour every moment of it…